How I made it happen...

HOW I MADE IT HAPPEN


I was born in my 7th month due to medical complications. None of the doctors thought I'd make it but as always, I fought and here I am... Strong and Alive. Its my 14th birthday and for the first time in my life I spend it home, with 3 of my cousins, one friend an acquaintance and my parents cause my brother decided to leave with his friend. I got to say, it wasn't how I planned it, but how I MADE IT HAPPEN and that's what I want this year to be like, THAT'S how I'm making it HAPPEN and that's how it should feel every day of my life... I cant wait to see what this year holds for me... What ill make happen. I'll make things happen for me. I'll find a road and I'll walk it alone. If you cant catch what I throw, then I'll leave you behind. That's just how it'll work.


Last night I realized that the one person that was my friend only used me. It was 10:47 and since she didn't even texted me to say happy birthday, so I texted her and asked her if she knew what day it was today, she asked another friend of mine what today was only to find out it was my birthday and congratulated me. Of course I was pissed, not because she didn't came over when I told her she could, but because she didn't congratulate me on such an important day and after a few minutes od me telling her that I didn't that she couldn't or didn't want to come over, but that she didn't say anything at all and she ended texting me that she 'might buy me something and come to my house and give it to me' who does she think I am? If she thinks she buy me back, she's very wrong. I am not one to be messed with and I'm tired of her using me to cheat and look for comforting words whenever she's hurt and if i need anything, shed blow me off and tell me to figure it out by myself... I think I've had enough of that and so I've decided to say goodbye to such useless and fake thing I called a friendship and ride solo. I might not have a girl to talk to or someone to make me go o parties but you know what they say 'Better alone than with bad company' and its true... plus, now I'll have more time to figure out who I truly am, something I've been trying to do for the past ten years... I lost myself and there's no sign of me. Maybe I'm looking in all the wrong places and maybe now that I don't have her to distract me I could probably find me. Everyone around seems to know what they want in life but I don't know anything at all but that's something I'll figure it out with time. I don't live hanging on to faith cause that wont get me anywhere, only taking action will and I take action for my own sake, not for others and I start now. I'll take action and nothing will hold me down. I might fall down in the process but I'll get back up stronger than ever and will fight with all I have and when I get old I will look back to this moment, this blog, the actions I took, the knots I tide and untied and I wont regret a thing. I will look back at all of those who thought I wouldn't make it, and the ones that tried to hold me back and I will laugh with all i have until I cry and almost die because I couldn't breath and I wont regret a thing... In fact, I think I will thank them for giving me a reason to prove them wrong and I wont stop laughing, and I'll tell my story to my grand kids and I will laugh and smile proudly, stand up slowly so that I don't dislocate my hip and say 'I enjoyed my life, and my life is now complete... Now I can rest in peace' and so my life will be complete and my job for filled and I will be complete and happy with my life, with what I've done and then, just then I could be taken away with ease.